34 weeks...

Well I've made it to 34 weeks which is good, but I have to say I'm struggling this week. I think the combination of hormones, being 8 and half months pregnant, and life are all ganging up on me, and I'm feeling rather overwhelmed. I have to go to the hospital 2 times a week to have the baby's heart rate monitored, and one of those times they will also measure the amount of amniotic fluid. Right now the heart rate monitoring is just due to my high risk status, and the monitoring of fluid is because i'm just on the verge of having too much, which can mean premature labor so they are just keeping an eye on things.

My hubby is working an extra week out of town to make some extra income for when he's off when the baby comes, and my 14 year old step son has been less than easy to deal with...so I'm feeling rather alone and scared right now. I know this is all normal for being at this point in the pregnancy, but it doesn't make it any easier to deal with...on top of all that one of the key supports in my life has dropped out of existance and refuses to contact me...so I'm feeling a little sorry for myself. I always thought people would ralley around when your pregnant, but the one person I thought would be there has disappeared. POOP!

Overall things aren't as dark as I feel like they are, and I'm trying to keep things in perspective. My friend that was 7 weeks ahead of me, and delivered last week went through all the same feelings and hormones...so I'm trying to keep a good perspective. That's important because we all know that when we stress and don't sleep...our FMS gets worse. Mine is starting to rear it's head so it's a good reminder to try and relax and take care of myself.

I'm so grateful for all of you out there who have stuck by me and supported me on my blog...even though my entries have been inconsistent lately...all of you are on my mind alot and I cherish this outlet and the support that I have.

Thanks to all my peeps!

hobbz