Friday, September 26, 2008


Whew...made it through yet another week, and this one was a doosey! I started a week ago today, with the worst headache of my life. I get migraines frequently, but honestly this had me thinking I was gonna after a trip to the ER, a CT scan, and many IV drugs I made it back home. The thought is that now, of all things my blood pressure is sky high and that this might be the underlying cause of the headache. So, it's off to the doctor, some more, yet again, one more probably get yet another pill to take daily. ack!

The good news though was that my neck appt went really well. No more Brace....Sweet! I can start to do non-weight bearing exercise so that's a plus, I'm gonna sign up this weekend at a cheap gym. The bone graft isn't fused yet but he suspects it will take at least 6 I'm on my own for 4 more months.

Work has been crazy busy. I'm covering for a vacationing co-worker, doing my old position and my new position....yup crazy making I tell you. Many hours of overtime...hey wait....wasn't I supposed to be cutting back? Yikes. Only 2 more weeks and I'm happily working from home. Ooooh it will be so nice. My boss is also thinking that she will still need me after the new year so this could go on indefinitely, which would make my life mucho wonderful.

Other than that I've been spending all my "free" time...working on icky math homework with my son (you should see what they're doing these days...way over my or more often than not...sleeping. Which is where I'm off to now. i have to make sure I sleep tons this weekend because I'm sure next week will be equally as busy as this one....

hope all is well in blog world!


Sunday, September 21, 2008

Only 3 more weeks of going to work!

Woot woot...the count down is on! Only 3 more weeks and I'll officially be working from home, who could ask for more? Certainly not I at this point.

I go for my 8 week post-op check up on Tuesday, so hopefully I'll be able to lose the stupid collar, not that I'm wearing it much anymore anyways....oops, was that my outside voice? lol I'm hoping to be all cleared so I can start back at the gym and start getting my "post work" life going....tee heee hee hee. So far my only complaint is neck stiffness, which I'm guessing is pretty par for the course. My shoulder has pretty much resolved itself, there's a small ache at times...but it's NOTHING compared to what it was like pre-surgery! Wow dare I believe that my life is on the upswing????? Nope....don't want to jinx it!

Hope all my fibrofriends are well and practicing good self-care....i love you all!


Tuesday, September 16, 2008

best of both worlds...

So I know it's been a bit of a pause...but heh you blink and a week has passed! Yikes...maybe it's just age.....naw that can't be

I finally spoke to my boss last week and gave my notice (for a month from now). The totally cool and amazing thing is that she offered for me to just work on special projects...AND to do all that from HOME! Yes I said from HOME on my OWN time! Woot Woot!

I couldn't have asked for this to turn out a better way. I've been racking my brain trying to figure out what kind of job I can do from home, and here one just falls into my lap.

I don't have ton of time to explain right now, but I am so greatful for all the support that you guys have given me with this issue, that I wanted to post the good news! I'll write more in a day or two!

love you all!


Wednesday, September 3, 2008

A decision made...

So after a long weekend of vascillating back and work or not to work.....a decision has finally been made. In my last post I was in so much indecision, and all that disappeared once I was back at work on Monday, after very little recovery time over the weekend. It has become totally clear to both my husband and myself that at this point I just don't need to be working. I very much need to take some time off and get my health and my life back, to whatever extent that is possible.

When I got a great review on Friday, it was almost like I was seeing that old me, that person that strived to define herself by the work that she did. I am just, and I would argue even more valuable as a healthy me that stays at home. I think I just needed to morn that old life and get to a point of acceptance with the life I lead now with fibromyalgia. I so wish that I could convey to friends and family how different and difficult our life has become. Yet by the same token, it has certainly forced me to live life on life's terms and realize that I have more to offer myself, my family, and the world, by being the best me I can be. At this point and time I can't do that AND work.

So yes the decision is made, once my husband is back at work (2weeks from now), I will be giving my notice at work. While there is some fear around loss of income, both my husband and I know that this is the right thing to do, and have made peace with this decision.

I want to thank all those who also suffer from some sort of chronic/invisible illness that read this blog and help me keep a realistic perspective on where my life is at this point. Thanks you are all a life line for me!!!!