Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Hellooooo all

Wow it's the middle of November already, can you believe it? Celebrated my 41st birthday with my husband and two kiddos last week and thoroughly enjoyed it. It was nice and quiet, but having the 4 of us all together for the evening was just what the doctor ordered.

I really don't have much new going on since my last post. I continue to try and manage the stress of daily life, and all that comes with it. Our weather has gotten significantly colder and I notice I sleep less and less when the weather is cold. The good thing is that my pain has been pretty good over the past couple of weeks.

In late December I'm going to help my old job out for a couple of months to help out with maternity and surgery leaves. I will work pretty much full time for January and February and then just on-call to cover vacations etc. after that. While it will be nice to have the extra pay, and get out of the house a bit, I'm pretty nervous about the whole idea. I'm really scared that when my hubby isn't home, it's going to really take a toll on my body....trying to care for a 6 month old and working full time...and then having my son home on the weekends....but it's time limited, and that needs to be my focus. I'm not really sure if this is the best decision or not right now...but it will help out financially and like I said it's only a couple of months. I can do anything for 2 months....that would appall me to do for a lifetime????? right????

we will see....sigh

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

long week

Well it's been a long week! Winter has definitely arrived in Alaska, and I'm feeling woefully unprepared for it mentally. I can already see the decline/change in my health.

Also feeling the impact of a lot of losses this week. I've lost some key pillars that I relied on in my life over the last year, and when I'm on my own, with a struggling teen and an infant I have no experience with, I feel pretty overwhelmed. Some of those pillars were people and some were ideals that I had on how things would play out under certain circumstances....I guess either way they are losses.

So colder weather and mental stress always triggers the fibro. Still not sleeping well, and feeling more pain because of it. It's like a vicious circle, when one thing falters it becomes a horrible snowball effect that leaves one exhausted and in pain. It's a lot harder to keep positive during these times....the good part is, that even though I feel poopy, I'm still better off now on the new meds than I guess it could always be worse right?

cup half full and all that :0)