Thanks folks for the comments and emails/FB replies to my last post...I truly value all the support that you have given to me.
Things on the home front are slowly getting better...which has allowed me to get more in touch with my feelings and how my health is being affected by all of the drama. I've noticed recently that a lot of my joints are really bothering me/feeling strained. I'm not sure what that's about. My fibro has only ever affected my muscles...so this is new for me. When I cough or sneeze I get a long lasting wave of pain through all my joints literally. Also I seem to have random pain/strain attacks in my joints. Ongoing my left elbow has been killing me...but also my right knee and ankle will just out of the blue become super painful, almost as if electric shocks are going through them...one day going up the stairs my ankle got so bad I couldn't even walk on it, and had to resort to a cane for a couple of days and now it randomly hurts when I put weight on it...put it's totally random and short lived. My right wrist also goes through periods of feeling like it's sprained, kind of like my elbow. I've also had some trouble with my hips...it's totally weird.
I see my doc on the 30th so we will see what she thinks...part of me thinks maybe it's a side effect of the new Savella I'm taking...which would suck since it's helped the rest of my FMS soooo much...but then a darker side of me worries I'm developing something else like arthritis or MS...it's never good to sit with these thoughts for too long....so I'm trying to patiently wait until I see the doc.
In the meantime I'm trying to keep physically active, eat right, sleep well, and continue my counselling to deal with emotional stuff....that's the best one can do for now.
lots of love to all of you! Thanks for being my Peeps!