So I'm 21 and a half weeks....the halfway point has finally been passed! Now it kind of feels like I'm getting somewhere :-) nine months is a loooong time.
Since my last post we had our amniocentesis and all the chromosomes are perfect...insert sigh of relief here...We also had our 20 wk ultrasound and our little baby girl is just over 12 oz and was all curled up in a ball. It was quite cute, we even got to see her yawn. So far she's right on track and everything looks to be normal and healthy.
My health has been up and down. Luckily I'm having more ups than downs right now tho. Some days I feel pretty good and others I spend most of the day in the bathroom, so I don't plan too far in advance. It's weird but for some reason the more I move around the more sick to my stomach I get, which doesn't make getting out of the house much fun. My husband is a saint...he's started driving out of the way routes to places so that he'll be able to pull over at a moment's notice for me to hang my head out the door and hurl...what a lucky guy huh? lol
The holidays were quiet...just me and my hubby at home...and we're getting back into the swing of things in this new year that is going to totally change our lives forever :) My Fibro has been pretty non-existent throughout the pregnancy, in this second trimester I'm having more pain than before, but nothing like my pre-pregnancy pain. It will suck when it all comes rushing back, but I'm greatful that I'm not battling morning sickness AND fms pain at the same time.
My tummy feels like it's expanding exponentially everyday...yikes...those last couple of months are going to be a might uncomfortable...I can tell already. We've come up with a name...but of course we're second guessing ourselves now...so who knows what we'll end up with...either way it will be a secret until she's born.
All in all things are going well. Thanks for all the support folks! I love u all!
May the new year bring you happiness and joy!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hobbz
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Monday, December 14, 2009
What a month!
Whew hopefully the worst is over. As you've noticed, I'm sure, I've been off line for awhile. It's been a month of non-stop morning sickness (I've lost more than 20lbs), a threatened miscarriage, which led to several weeks bedrest....but finally I've come out on the other side only a little more bored than usual. :)
Yes the morning sickness has officially kicked my butt. I got to the point where absolutely nothing I ate would stay down. I have to say at this point that I just took yet another 5 min break to toss my cookies...ack...I thought it was getting better anyways...Actually in all honesty it's a million times better than it was, but the whole process was not a pleasant one.
As for the rest, I started bleeding the weekend before Thanksgiving and went through several hours of terror in the ER, before finding out that the baby was doing ok. A small portion of my placenta tore away from the uterine wall which of course caused me to bleed profusely. Apparently this isn't too uncommon and all bleeding had stopped completely within a few days, but I was on bedrest for a few weeks just to be safe. We had our amniocentesis on Thursday and the baby looked really healthy and is growing like a weed! A whole 5oz at 16weeks. We also ended up finding out that we are having a girl! Very exciting stuff!
So now this week I'm slowly starting to resume normal activities and we'll see how that turns out. While it's been the month from hell, the end result will be way more than worth it! Thanks to all who have provided their love and support through this difficult time, it means more to Bret and I than we can ever say in words!
Love you all and happy holidays!
hobbz
Yes the morning sickness has officially kicked my butt. I got to the point where absolutely nothing I ate would stay down. I have to say at this point that I just took yet another 5 min break to toss my cookies...ack...I thought it was getting better anyways...Actually in all honesty it's a million times better than it was, but the whole process was not a pleasant one.
As for the rest, I started bleeding the weekend before Thanksgiving and went through several hours of terror in the ER, before finding out that the baby was doing ok. A small portion of my placenta tore away from the uterine wall which of course caused me to bleed profusely. Apparently this isn't too uncommon and all bleeding had stopped completely within a few days, but I was on bedrest for a few weeks just to be safe. We had our amniocentesis on Thursday and the baby looked really healthy and is growing like a weed! A whole 5oz at 16weeks. We also ended up finding out that we are having a girl! Very exciting stuff!
So now this week I'm slowly starting to resume normal activities and we'll see how that turns out. While it's been the month from hell, the end result will be way more than worth it! Thanks to all who have provided their love and support through this difficult time, it means more to Bret and I than we can ever say in words!
Love you all and happy holidays!
hobbz
Friday, October 30, 2009
Life keeps trucking along
Things have pretty much been status quo since my last post. I am now 10weeks and 2days along in my pregnancy, and still playing the role of pukey the clown...sigh. I've been sleeping alot lately too. I don't sleep more than about 3 hours at a time so it feels like I'm in a perpetual state of napping; which isn't necessarily all that bad. Naps should be mandatory in my opinion anyways so it's all good.
I've been eating tons healthier which helps me feel better too. Who knew? Fruit and frozen fruit are about the only things that seem appealing these days, so I'm just going with it. Eat what I can, when I can, that seems to be the mantra for the first trimester.
My husband has been out of town working for the last 2 weeks and finally gets home tonight. Life is so much easier when he's on his 2 weeks home...it's nice to not have to take care of EVERYTHING all by myself. Our 14 yr old son has decided that school and telling the truth are for the birds, which makes our home life less than relaxing. It's been a battle every night just to find out what is for homework and get it done. So far today we've been through about 15 million lies before getting down to the truth, by contacting his teacher directly. Can you say STRESS? and what does stress equal? fibro pain! yikes....the trials and tribulations of everyday life lol.
So life just keeps on trucking along, and all in all my health is in a pretty ok spot right now (crossing fingers, toes, arms, and legs now). It's all in the perspective that one keeps, how simple yet so profound. So here's me pregnant, with a hormone raging teen, and fibromyalgia.....lol
hobbz
I've been eating tons healthier which helps me feel better too. Who knew? Fruit and frozen fruit are about the only things that seem appealing these days, so I'm just going with it. Eat what I can, when I can, that seems to be the mantra for the first trimester.
My husband has been out of town working for the last 2 weeks and finally gets home tonight. Life is so much easier when he's on his 2 weeks home...it's nice to not have to take care of EVERYTHING all by myself. Our 14 yr old son has decided that school and telling the truth are for the birds, which makes our home life less than relaxing. It's been a battle every night just to find out what is for homework and get it done. So far today we've been through about 15 million lies before getting down to the truth, by contacting his teacher directly. Can you say STRESS? and what does stress equal? fibro pain! yikes....the trials and tribulations of everyday life lol.
So life just keeps on trucking along, and all in all my health is in a pretty ok spot right now (crossing fingers, toes, arms, and legs now). It's all in the perspective that one keeps, how simple yet so profound. So here's me pregnant, with a hormone raging teen, and fibromyalgia.....lol
hobbz
Friday, October 16, 2009
OK so it's been forever....
I know it's been forever since I've blogged...but hey...life just kind of gets in the way sometimes.
The cool news is that we are pregnant!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Very excited I'm 8 weeks and 3 days as of this post. The not so fun news is that I've spent the last 2.5 weeks puking my guts out. I'm trying to keep a positive perspective that that means the baby is healthy and growing, but puking gets old. There's nothing I hate more in the world, not that I know too many people that like it...but you know what I mean.
We found out super early, Like 2 weeks in, so I've been adjusting my meds, which has been a crazy adventure in and of itself. When I first found out that I was pregnant, my family doctor told me to stop my tramodol completely. Horrible, let me repeat horrible idea to go from 4-6 pills a day for the last 5 years down to nothing. I went through MAJOR withdrawal, it was ugly. So with the help of my O.B. doc and my family doc they have me down to 3 a day. Which by no means takes care of my pain, but I'm still able to function. Anything less and I'm a mess, i don't sleep, eat, think, function in any viable way. I also cut out my restless leg meds (mirapex) which makes sleeping challenging at the best of times. But it will all be worth it in the end....but it will be a long journey to make it to the end of May 2010.
I'm super jazzed and really haven't noticed that my fibro has been any better/worse than normal while being pregnant...granted it's still early. I'll be 40 in 3 weeks so I'm already high risk so I suspect at some point I'll end up on bed rest too. I'm trying to prepare myself for the worst and hope for the best. Only time will tell.
I've realized more than ever, how grateful I am for the amazing support of my husband...he has been soooo cool at trying to help me whatever I need. I'm not sure what I'd do without him. He went back to work this morning so it will be 2 weeks with just me and my son, and I have to admit I'm kinda nervous. Not that I can't do it, but it's really nice to have that extra support around. Although my son was awesome today at the grocery store...he new I was really nauseous and he helped with everything that he could...I guess he takes after his dad :)
This is my first pregnancy, my "son" is actually my step-son...so I'll just have to ride the wave and go wherever my body and hormones take me...but so far...things are good.
I'll keep you posted
hobbz
The cool news is that we are pregnant!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Very excited I'm 8 weeks and 3 days as of this post. The not so fun news is that I've spent the last 2.5 weeks puking my guts out. I'm trying to keep a positive perspective that that means the baby is healthy and growing, but puking gets old. There's nothing I hate more in the world, not that I know too many people that like it...but you know what I mean.
We found out super early, Like 2 weeks in, so I've been adjusting my meds, which has been a crazy adventure in and of itself. When I first found out that I was pregnant, my family doctor told me to stop my tramodol completely. Horrible, let me repeat horrible idea to go from 4-6 pills a day for the last 5 years down to nothing. I went through MAJOR withdrawal, it was ugly. So with the help of my O.B. doc and my family doc they have me down to 3 a day. Which by no means takes care of my pain, but I'm still able to function. Anything less and I'm a mess, i don't sleep, eat, think, function in any viable way. I also cut out my restless leg meds (mirapex) which makes sleeping challenging at the best of times. But it will all be worth it in the end....but it will be a long journey to make it to the end of May 2010.
I'm super jazzed and really haven't noticed that my fibro has been any better/worse than normal while being pregnant...granted it's still early. I'll be 40 in 3 weeks so I'm already high risk so I suspect at some point I'll end up on bed rest too. I'm trying to prepare myself for the worst and hope for the best. Only time will tell.
I've realized more than ever, how grateful I am for the amazing support of my husband...he has been soooo cool at trying to help me whatever I need. I'm not sure what I'd do without him. He went back to work this morning so it will be 2 weeks with just me and my son, and I have to admit I'm kinda nervous. Not that I can't do it, but it's really nice to have that extra support around. Although my son was awesome today at the grocery store...he new I was really nauseous and he helped with everything that he could...I guess he takes after his dad :)
This is my first pregnancy, my "son" is actually my step-son...so I'll just have to ride the wave and go wherever my body and hormones take me...but so far...things are good.
I'll keep you posted
hobbz
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Roller coaster ride
So life has been like a roller coaster ride lately. Lots of ups and downs, (I never have liked those things lol). The fam and I came down with the Swine Flu so that put me out of commission for 8-10 days....very tired and bad headache are all I can say. Luckily however we've recovered and life is moving on.
I've been in and out of flares lately and cutting back on my meds has really made sleeping difficult. My legs are either in a ton of pain or the restless leg thing is driving me crazy. I haven't found anything that helps my jumpy legs other than medicine so it's been a long month. My family doc was telling me about the new drug Savella (sp?). She says that she has switched alot of her fibro patients over to it, with stunning results, some are even hiking and jogging daily!!!!! Can you believe that? My husband just about fell off his chair when she said that. So right now while we're trying to get pregnant, isn't the time to start a new drug, but hopefully by this time next year I'll be able to give it a whirl.
Does anyone out there have any experience with Savella, I really haven't had much time to do any research on it, but I'll keep you posted as I do.
Sadly this is just a short post as I really need to head to bed, but I wanted to check in and let folks know I'm still alive. I'll try to post more in the next week or so, I've just been so busy sleeping lately I haven't had much motivation to chat. Sad huh.....lol
hobbz
I've been in and out of flares lately and cutting back on my meds has really made sleeping difficult. My legs are either in a ton of pain or the restless leg thing is driving me crazy. I haven't found anything that helps my jumpy legs other than medicine so it's been a long month. My family doc was telling me about the new drug Savella (sp?). She says that she has switched alot of her fibro patients over to it, with stunning results, some are even hiking and jogging daily!!!!! Can you believe that? My husband just about fell off his chair when she said that. So right now while we're trying to get pregnant, isn't the time to start a new drug, but hopefully by this time next year I'll be able to give it a whirl.
Does anyone out there have any experience with Savella, I really haven't had much time to do any research on it, but I'll keep you posted as I do.
Sadly this is just a short post as I really need to head to bed, but I wanted to check in and let folks know I'm still alive. I'll try to post more in the next week or so, I've just been so busy sleeping lately I haven't had much motivation to chat. Sad huh.....lol
hobbz
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
:)
So my positive attitude is still intact, but I'm in a bit of a flare. It's been 4 or 5 days since I've had more than a couple of hours of sleep and my back is on fire. Reality bites. lol
The good thing is that I knew this is coming...and just as it snuck up on me....it too will sneak away again for a break. I'm learning to ride the waves of this disease, and while this valley isn't any fun...I've come to learn how to take care of myself and ride the wave back up to the top.
Right now my son and husband are both out of town...but as of Sunday they will both be back...hopefully I'll be able to keep focusing on taking care of myself with the fam back at home. It's hard to feel like I'm taking away from them to take care of me...but I've recently accepted the fact (in my heart, not just my head), that I'm off no use to either of them if I can't take care of myself.....so wish me luck.
hobbz
The good thing is that I knew this is coming...and just as it snuck up on me....it too will sneak away again for a break. I'm learning to ride the waves of this disease, and while this valley isn't any fun...I've come to learn how to take care of myself and ride the wave back up to the top.
Right now my son and husband are both out of town...but as of Sunday they will both be back...hopefully I'll be able to keep focusing on taking care of myself with the fam back at home. It's hard to feel like I'm taking away from them to take care of me...but I've recently accepted the fact (in my heart, not just my head), that I'm off no use to either of them if I can't take care of myself.....so wish me luck.
hobbz
Thursday, July 30, 2009
A change of perspective....
Once again it's been awhile since my last post. I've been, one, enjoying the amazing summer weather we've had this year! It is truly amazing to live in a place as beautiful as Alaska in the summer time. Two, I've been doing alot of self discovery and work on my self image. Actually I think I've actually made some significant headway in this area.
I will be 40 in November and I'm starting to think I'm going through some sort of mid-life crisis, but in a good way...definitely not bad. I've really started to come into my own over the past 3 or 4 months, and it's feeling really amazing! I'm coming to grips with issues that have mired me down for as long as I can remember, and it's lifted an amazing weight off my shoulders.
As far as my fibro is concerned, it is as normal, ever fluctuating. I have a great week and then it's followed by two weeks of pain and fatigue like no other. The thing is though, that I've started to see that I don't have to be defined by my inability to do things. Don't get me wrong, I still get pinnacly frustrated when my body doesn't co-operate, but I've started being easier on myself about it. I still am mourning the loss of my "old" self, but somehow it doesn't seem quite so overwhelming as it has in the past. This my friends is major progress for me, and I'm pretty darn proud of myself! Yea me!
I've joined a gym and have been attending pretty regularly. Of course at first I had huge plans to go everyday and become skinny and buff in no time at all....(duh...will I ever learn? lol). However I'm slowly, ever so slowly learning to give myself a break and go to the gym when it's going to be helpful and not detrimental to my body and well being. I'm still at the point where my body rebels to some extent after a workout, but I am also far enough along into the process that I'm also starting to feel a little bit more energized after each venture into the gym. So I'll keep slugging away and get to my goals when I get there. I have to be careful to not compare the "old" me to the "new" me, and focus on the positives that I'm gaining. Overall however I'm very happy with my progress and new found focus.
I'm so excited to feel like I'm finally climbing out of the hole, that represents all the losses I feel surrounding this stupid disease. I'm to a point where I'm ok with me as I am. My weight is way higher than I'd like, but there is good reason for that and I'm working on it. I can't work the hours or at the intensity that I used to, but now I've found hobbies that are relaxing and fill me up instead of take away from me. I can't hike all the trails I'd like to, but I can spend a day fishing with my husband and be supported for the next two days while I recover. Right now it's pretty good to be me...fibro and all.
Without this disease I don't know if I would have gotten to this realization, I do know that it would have taken me alot longer to get to this point without the fms. I'm happy to be me, and I really don't care what others think. My fibro tattoo has really allowed me to spread awareness to others, and that is so rewarding! I have a new set of friends here in Alaska that I have opened up to, and they understand and support me with the fibro...it's so cool to have somebody phone just to see how I'm feeling today. I've spent the last 4 years worried about hiding my disease for fear of judgement and now I feel totally empowered to be me...fibro and all...and to not worry about anyone else's opinion. My new motto is "it's none of my business what you think of me"
As long as I'm living my life to the fullest I'm doing good. This disease has challenged me to do this, and now I accept the challenge as opposed to resent it. This is a subtle change in thought....but a huge leap of faith and attitude.
THANKS TO ALL WHO HAVE SUPPORTED ME THUS FAR! You know who you are and I'll continue to lean on you...but maybe now, I can be happier and more comfortable with me and my situation.
My name is Jan...and I have Fibromyalgia....so what!
hobbz
I will be 40 in November and I'm starting to think I'm going through some sort of mid-life crisis, but in a good way...definitely not bad. I've really started to come into my own over the past 3 or 4 months, and it's feeling really amazing! I'm coming to grips with issues that have mired me down for as long as I can remember, and it's lifted an amazing weight off my shoulders.
As far as my fibro is concerned, it is as normal, ever fluctuating. I have a great week and then it's followed by two weeks of pain and fatigue like no other. The thing is though, that I've started to see that I don't have to be defined by my inability to do things. Don't get me wrong, I still get pinnacly frustrated when my body doesn't co-operate, but I've started being easier on myself about it. I still am mourning the loss of my "old" self, but somehow it doesn't seem quite so overwhelming as it has in the past. This my friends is major progress for me, and I'm pretty darn proud of myself! Yea me!
I've joined a gym and have been attending pretty regularly. Of course at first I had huge plans to go everyday and become skinny and buff in no time at all....(duh...will I ever learn? lol). However I'm slowly, ever so slowly learning to give myself a break and go to the gym when it's going to be helpful and not detrimental to my body and well being. I'm still at the point where my body rebels to some extent after a workout, but I am also far enough along into the process that I'm also starting to feel a little bit more energized after each venture into the gym. So I'll keep slugging away and get to my goals when I get there. I have to be careful to not compare the "old" me to the "new" me, and focus on the positives that I'm gaining. Overall however I'm very happy with my progress and new found focus.
I'm so excited to feel like I'm finally climbing out of the hole, that represents all the losses I feel surrounding this stupid disease. I'm to a point where I'm ok with me as I am. My weight is way higher than I'd like, but there is good reason for that and I'm working on it. I can't work the hours or at the intensity that I used to, but now I've found hobbies that are relaxing and fill me up instead of take away from me. I can't hike all the trails I'd like to, but I can spend a day fishing with my husband and be supported for the next two days while I recover. Right now it's pretty good to be me...fibro and all.
Without this disease I don't know if I would have gotten to this realization, I do know that it would have taken me alot longer to get to this point without the fms. I'm happy to be me, and I really don't care what others think. My fibro tattoo has really allowed me to spread awareness to others, and that is so rewarding! I have a new set of friends here in Alaska that I have opened up to, and they understand and support me with the fibro...it's so cool to have somebody phone just to see how I'm feeling today. I've spent the last 4 years worried about hiding my disease for fear of judgement and now I feel totally empowered to be me...fibro and all...and to not worry about anyone else's opinion. My new motto is "it's none of my business what you think of me"
As long as I'm living my life to the fullest I'm doing good. This disease has challenged me to do this, and now I accept the challenge as opposed to resent it. This is a subtle change in thought....but a huge leap of faith and attitude.
THANKS TO ALL WHO HAVE SUPPORTED ME THUS FAR! You know who you are and I'll continue to lean on you...but maybe now, I can be happier and more comfortable with me and my situation.
My name is Jan...and I have Fibromyalgia....so what!
hobbz
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