A couple of people brought up the same issue that aplseed did, about not wanting to be seen as just the disease. For me though it is a way to remember that it is just a disease and it's part of me like a tatoo, but it's a long way from who I am as a whole. I'm not sure why it symbolizes that for me, but it does, and I guess I'm the only one who has to like it and live with it....and I do. The minute it was all finished I knew I'd made the right decision. It's a huge part of my life and part of the problem with this disease is that we don't "look sick", we look perfectly normal and healthy, so people can sometimes jump to the conclusion that it's "all in our heads" or that we just want the "drama" of it all.....which is sooooo far from the truth.
The most positive change for me, has been to start focusing on raising awareness, and not being afraid to admit to/or let someone else know that I DO have a disease and it affects everything that I do. I'm proud to be the person I am, and I'm proud that I have found a positive outlet to focus on with my FMS as opposed to always looking at the negative and how it takes away from my life. Writing this blog and wearing my tattoo with confidence allows me to work WITH my disease and not AGAINST it.
So for those of you who don't like it or think it was the right thing to do, I very much appreciate your point of view and thank you for helping me to explore all these things before I got the tattoo, but know that it's the right fit for me and that's all I can do right now. ...the next right thing for me!
love you all!