Thursday, July 10, 2008


So I'm feeling a little better than I was when I last posted, but I still have to say I'm pretty shit scared of this surgery. I know that it's relatively routine, but I've always had a hugely unrealistic fear of breaking my neck, and now a doctor is going to be cutting, removing disks, and messing with vertebrae all that are impinging on my spinal cord....ick.

Not to mention the fact that they access your spine through the front of your neck, which means they have to push aside your esophagus and trachea....i'm not too wild about any of this....but I've got lots of time to get used to hopefully I'll gain even more perspective.

As for the fibro???? the stress of all this medical crap has pushed me into a huge flare...ick. I hurt like hell, and I haven't slept more than about 6 hours total in the last 4 least it's almost the weekend and I will hopefully will be able to relax and get some sleep on my days off.

until this weekend......



Cinders said...

Hi Hobbz,
Poor you! that operation sounds yuky. At least they found out what was wrong with you, but fancy you and your hubby both having it togehter. How are you going to nurse each other a week apart?
I empathise totally with you over the hand life has dealt us re the FM. boy is it a hard one to swallow and get your head round. makes you wonder what you did in a previous life as you said!
That vicious circle of no sleep, pain, exhaustion, wanting to sleep etc is hell. I'm intrigued by the sleep clinic doc and actual studies and help for FM patients. They'rre far more progressive over in the USA than over here.
Luckily with the lyrica, cymbalta and Morphine I sleep reasonably well. Not that it helps the pain a huge deal but its much nicer than tossing and turning for hours.
I do hope things look up for you. take care

Sue Jackson said...

Hi -

Thanks for visiting my blog and adding a link to it! I'm sorry to hear that you need surgery, but it sounds like it's a relief to have a diagnosis and path forward. Pain has never been a prominent part of my CFS, so I can't imagine what it must be like to live with chronic pain. I hope the surgery helps you. Here's a link to a good article for people with FM and CFS who are having surgery - hope it's helpful to you:


Sue Jackson said...

Oh, I see the link I included got cut off. Just e-mail me from the link at my profile, and I'll send you the full link.


hobbz said...

Thanks to both of you for your kind comments...I'll keep you posted on the happenings...