Saturday, November 29, 2008

more of the same

My last post was a vent in frustration, so now today I feel like I should have something prophetic to, nothing is coming. Work has been good, but I've had to spend alot of time at the hospital so it's not the same as working "from home". My health fibro wise has been sporadic. I'm really fighting some hellish stiffness and pain in my neck. I went to see the surgeon and he said it's par for the course and it's probably just because I'm doing more and more. But seriously folks....I'm a slug! I haven't been doing anything I don't normally do. My husband's neck is pain free and he had the surgery the same time as me and had double the work done....what an evil doer he is! lol

I know everyone's different and heals at their own pace...but my neck didn't hurt before why does it hurt knows. My shoulder doesn't hardly hurt at all tho, and that is WONDERBAR! so I guess I shouldn't complain....speaking of complaints, I've been reading alot about gratitude lately and how it helps the soul and body alike. So every night before I go to bed I go through the entire alphabet and come up with one thing I'm grateful for that starts with each letter....and go figure it actually works. Just like it's hard to cry and smile at the same's hard to be bitter and grateful at the same time. Now obviously that's not a rocket science type of discovery, but sometimes I think my head misses the most obvious of things/ I thought I'd throw it out there for folks!

try the alphabet gratitude list each day, or start a gratitude journal and write down 3 things your grateful for each day....see how it works.



Jasmine said...

Excellent advice Hobbz! Hope the stiffness/pain goes away soon :)

Donimo said...

I like the gratitude alphabet idea. I do reflect on what I'm grateful for and often do that when I'm trying to fall asleep at night. It does help.

I'm sorry you have post-surgery pain, though I'm not surprised given how FM flares up when things are disturbed. Some people get FM after surgery. It might take a few months for things to calm down. It must be getting awfully cold up there... does cold make your pain worse? It does mine. Things have been very mild here November and so far this month... I hope for a mild winter. The greyness and early dark doesn't help the mood, but I will try for more lights inside this year. Right now at the hotel, we have floor to ceiling windows which I will hate to leave behind! I'm grateful for house insurance and a recommendation to a nice hotel and a lack of the usual Vancouver rain. That's my list right now!

Barbara K. said...

sorry you've been in pain. It's hard to see any good in life when it's all colored by hurt. that makes me doubly impressed that you are doing the gratitude meditation and seeking. I find some days, the only hope I can find is in the seeking.

hobbz said...

Amen to that Barbara....that is really where i'm at right now. Maybe I will "seek" myself into a better thought process

Cinders said...

Hi Hobbz, we havnt 'spoken' for a while. just dropped by to wish you a Happy Christmas and new year and hope 2009 is a better year for you