Friday, February 25, 2011

When will it end?

So this is my new mantra....when will this sh*t end????  I've been in a flare for over 3 weeks, as I said in my last post I thought it was waning, and in truth the pain is not as intense, but I am sooooo tired, exhausted, lethargic, I can't even tell you.  I struggle to get out of bed, and even to just sit on the couch...what is up.  I mentioned to my husband that maybe I'm getting depressed, but he thinks that the flare has just taken it out of me and I'm wiped.  Still not sure what the answer is.

All I can say at this point, though, is I hate it, I hate it, I hate it!  I can't even think of something to do, that's how low my brain power is right now.  My husband is frustrated because I don't want to do anything, and I'm frustrated because I'm bored...yet I lack the will to do something other than sit.   Things just aren't right in my world right now, and I'm perplexed as to how I can begin to change it.

I had a weird shaking/weak spell the other night.  You know how you feel when you are super hungry and your blood sugar is low.  All weak and shaky?   That's exactly how I felt, but I'd just finished dinner.  My hands were shaking like crazy and I didn't dare stand up for fear of falling over.  It lasted about half and hour and then things were back to normal.

Today I woke up with a rather unhappy it settled...slept a little more...then woke up again to the same thing.   I would just like one day at this day where I don't feel bad.  I went a long time without a major flare, and now I feel like I'm being a wimp by complaining about feeling bad for 3 weeks...but ugh this sucks.

I know that attitude is half the battle, but I just can't seem to get my mind to a positive place.  I'd like to just lay in bed, with the comfy covers over my head until all this goes away.....

feeling rather lethargic....



Susie said...

I sat here for a while before I posted, not sure what to say, but understanding what you are saying. I just went through this, but add in a couple of months, but then I started back on my Thyroid med and after about a month things started turning around. So I would ask, is there something else that could be contributing to this? I hope you feel better soon, very soon and if you need to vent, go ahead and let it out, I'll be happy to listen.

Sherlock said...

No advice but hopefully some comfort in knowing you're not alone.