So this is my new mantra....when will this sh*t end???? I've been in a flare for over 3 weeks, as I said in my last post I thought it was waning, and in truth the pain is not as intense, but I am sooooo tired, exhausted, lethargic, I can't even tell you. I struggle to get out of bed, and even to just sit on the couch...what is up. I mentioned to my husband that maybe I'm getting depressed, but he thinks that the flare has just taken it out of me and I'm wiped. Still not sure what the answer is.
All I can say at this point, though, is I hate it, I hate it, I hate it! I can't even think of something to do, that's how low my brain power is right now. My husband is frustrated because I don't want to do anything, and I'm frustrated because I'm bored...yet I lack the will to do something other than sit. Things just aren't right in my world right now, and I'm perplexed as to how I can begin to change it.
I had a weird shaking/weak spell the other night. You know how you feel when you are super hungry and your blood sugar is low. All weak and shaky? That's exactly how I felt, but I'd just finished dinner. My hands were shaking like crazy and I didn't dare stand up for fear of falling over. It lasted about half and hour and then things were back to normal.
Today I woke up with a rather unhappy stomach....got it settled...slept a little more...then woke up again to the same thing. I would just like one day at this point...one day where I don't feel bad. I went a long time without a major flare, and now I feel like I'm being a wimp by complaining about feeling bad for 3 weeks...but ugh this sucks.
I know that attitude is half the battle, but I just can't seem to get my mind to a positive place. I'd like to just lay in bed, with the comfy covers over my head until all this goes away.....
feeling rather lethargic....